Meth almost wrecked me

Well, here it is – my first blog entry. Hurray?

I am actually going to start this off by saying that it took me some time to figure out how to go about this. As I was building this site and entering the description I just randomly started typing in a description and here it is:

Just some tweeker’s white trash kid. Struggling with crystal meth addicton ALMOST destroyed me – I overcame.

I wanted to just keep it short and to the point. The truth is – that’s all anyone saw me as. I was just some trailer trash kid; only I didn’t grow up in a trailer. I grew up in a lovely place called Palmdale; 10th Place East in Palmdale, California to be exact. You know the city Afroman raps about in all of his drug laden rhymes right? Here’s a snippit from his song called Colt45:

So roll roll roll my joints pick out the seeds and stems
feelin high as hell flyin’ through Palmdale
skatin’ on datin rims

Surprisingly enough he went to Palmdale high. The same school I attended for about two weeks before getting kicked out.

It’s been over 15 years since I attended any type of school and the above statement holds true – Drugs, abuse and the life we lived almost destroyed me.

I’ve got so many stories to tell and if anyone would like to hear them – I’ve got a knack for ranting and my love for talking goes way beyond the spoken word and has now infected the computer. My truest hope is that in reading this blog you will be blessed in some way.

xo

  • Stella

    Good-luck to you; and I give ya’ “props” for doing/creating this blog. I’m sure it will help a lot of people, even if it’s only just one, that’s reason enough! God-bless you and keep fighting the good fight. πŸ™‚

  • Stella

    Good-luck to you; and I give ya’ “props” for doing/creating this blog. I’m sure it will help a lot of people, even if it’s only just one, that’s reason enough! God-bless you and keep fighting the good fight. πŸ™‚

  • Stella

    A lot of people clean, I meant to type! Sorry. πŸ™‚

  • Stella

    A lot of people clean, I meant to type! Sorry. πŸ™‚

  • Thank you Stella for the encouragement, I really appreciate your support!!

  • Thank you Stella for the encouragement, I really appreciate your support!!

  • euroyankee

    I too know the trajedy of Palmdale. I grew up on E Ave Q2 and 22nd St East. Our hometown is an anachronism; full of the broken homes of laid off aerospace workers and parole violators. Half the kids that I grew up with were the offspring of outlaw bikers and felons. 90% of the time their cupboards were bare and their houses reeked of cat piss. One or more parents/step parents were always involved in some stage of the judicial process. Dope is the only constant in an environment like that. It’s the only structure that some kids ever have growing up in the windy Antelope Valley. I am really happy for you that you were able to kick the sh1t. I am a veteran of the AV wasteland. I have since been around the world. There is so much more to life than ditching school in the desert, hiding from cops, and drinking coffee at IHOP during school hours. Isn’t there?

  • euroyankee

    I too know the trajedy of Palmdale. I grew up on E Ave Q2 and 22nd St East. Our hometown is an anachronism; full of the broken homes of laid off aerospace workers and parole violators. Half the kids that I grew up with were the offspring of outlaw bikers and felons. 90% of the time their cupboards were bare and their houses reeked of cat piss. One or more parents/step parents were always involved in some stage of the judicial process. Dope is the only constant in an environment like that. It’s the only structure that some kids ever have growing up in the windy Antelope Valley. I am really happy for you that you were able to kick the sh1t. I am a veteran of the AV wasteland. I have since been around the world. There is so much more to life than ditching school in the desert, hiding from cops, and drinking coffee at IHOP during school hours. Isn’t there?

  • Thanks for stopping by yankee! Wow – small world!! Palmdale is an absolute nightmare. I continue to live in California and Palmdale still isn’t too far from me. I have friends and family there and still travel there as well. It’s funny, but you didn’t grow up too far from where I did! All the things you mentioned, I remember very, very well. Growing up, our house was the local tweaker hangout. And embarrassing as it was, I wouldn’t let my little friends come over to our house because our house smelled like cat piss 24/7. Those that did come over, rarely came back.

    I guess I should state for the record that I never became addicted to speed. Everyone in my life was though. My parents and every last friend I had. I lived the life as one of them – even staying up for days with them and dealing with those that almost died in front of me. I did try it – on my 18th birthday I said I would do it once just to see what it was that everyone loved so much about meth. I think because I hated what it did to everyone I knew so much, I wouldn’t let it’s effect take hold. I actually fell asleep after doing a line. I woke up the next day and went on a blind date where I began crying for no apparent reason and left the poor guy sitting alone at Sizzler (lol). I guess I got to experience the emotional roller coaster of coming down, but not the actual high. Oh well, it was best that way. I never did it again.

    I write this blog because even though I was not an addict, I lived the life of one. My life could have easily taken the same road as those around me. I could have let the obstacles of growing up poor as dirt with drugs around every corner overcome me, but I didn’t.

  • Thanks for stopping by yankee! Wow – small world!! Palmdale is an absolute nightmare. I continue to live in California and Palmdale still isn’t too far from me. I have friends and family there and still travel there as well. It’s funny, but you didn’t grow up too far from where I did! All the things you mentioned, I remember very, very well. Growing up, our house was the local tweaker hangout. And embarrassing as it was, I wouldn’t let my little friends come over to our house because our house smelled like cat piss 24/7. Those that did come over, rarely came back.

    I guess I should state for the record that I never became addicted to speed. Everyone in my life was though. My parents and every last friend I had. I lived the life as one of them – even staying up for days with them and dealing with those that almost died in front of me. I did try it – on my 18th birthday I said I would do it once just to see what it was that everyone loved so much about meth. I think because I hated what it did to everyone I knew so much, I wouldn’t let it’s effect take hold. I actually fell asleep after doing a line. I woke up the next day and went on a blind date where I began crying for no apparent reason and left the poor guy sitting alone at Sizzler (lol). I guess I got to experience the emotional roller coaster of coming down, but not the actual high. Oh well, it was best that way. I never did it again.

    I write this blog because even though I was not an addict, I lived the life of one. My life could have easily taken the same road as those around me. I could have let the obstacles of growing up poor as dirt with drugs around every corner overcome me, but I didn’t.

  • chris

    Keep posting, education is the key to help people realize the epidemic of drugs, and the need for more rehabs, not jails, and prisons…….if it were the DA's daughter or son, wife, or parent, what would they do for them????? I ask this question often, so many addicts don't get the help they need because of lack of knowldege of addiction….

  • TimoteoManna

    Don’t stretch the date out for too long. There is a limit to how much conversation two people can sustain when they go out for the first time. The ideal first date should last between two and two blind date uncensored and a half hours, and should give both of you the opportunity to talk in a pleasant and relatively quiet atmosphere; a walk through a beautiful park followed by a good cup of coffee and dessert is great.

  • jcoyote

    I could say something like,…How can you think you understand addiction or huh hu give dope another shot,. ….. but theres enough of that going on in here I applaud you for caring about the lives of others, Succinctly I must say I don't see alot of real “help” going on in here, alot of misinformation, insults, things of that nature. I have been an active addict for around 15 years now, I have also become an addiction counselor and behavioral science major. In an effort to not waste your time here I will just say this site has potential, I believe in it. If you would like, or could use help, advice, or anything at all please contact me, I've left my email. My name is Jon

  • jcoyote

    I could say something like,…How can you think you understand addiction or huh hu give dope another shot,. ….. but theres enough of that going on in here I applaud you for caring about the lives of others, Succinctly I must say I don't see alot of real “help” going on in here, alot of misinformation, insults, things of that nature. I have been an active addict for around 15 years now, I have also become an addiction counselor and behavioral science major. In an effort to not waste your time here I will just say this site has potential, I believe in it. If you would like, or could use help, advice, or anything at all please contact me, I've left my email. My name is Jon