Quitting is a Long Road…You Can’t Step Off the Path

I was introduced to meth for the first time at age 20, and I was instantly hooked.  I loved being on it, selling it, partying for days.  It was all good, until you know, it wasn’t.  You don’t always see life degrading around you until you’re pretty far gone.

I went through all the usual attempts to quit and cleanse myself, but when you know literally dozens and dozens of people just like you – people you see at parties, people on the street, people with whom you work, live – it’s always going to be a losing battle.  I went down about as low as I’d care to go.  Occasionally homeless, walking the streets at night with no destination.  Staying up in motels for weeks on end, hiding from everything.  We were all living in our own dark, secluded prisons towards my final days in that society.

The truth for me was that my will was straight up mighty, but it can only prevent me from going after the drug.  I’d quit and quit, and relapse every time.  Resisting it when it’s in front of you is an entirely different challenge, and one I believe very few people manage.

I’ve been entirely off that trash since 2004.  In fact, I don’t care for any drugs, period.  I’m confident that I could stand with pure ice in front of me and refuse to touch it, but it’s certainly a long road, and you can not step off the path.

For those of you that still struggle with it, you’ve got to believe in your strength and purpose, and know that you can push yourself away from this life and become the person you truly want to be.

Don’t stop trying.

Go to the friends and family that will support you and help you to clean yourself and become a better person.

There is always light ahead.

  • jesse

    after nearly 20 years of use I decided to quit 8 months ago there were three times before I had stopped using (not quit I always said I am not done with speed) but eight months ago It occurred to me that as good of care that I had taken not to let it destroy me my body and teeth that it was starting to catch up with me and I was just going to end up like everyone else I associated with it would just take longer I quit with $700 dollars in my wallet over 4 grams at my house and my dealer even owed me $100 my dope stayed in the drawer I had it in and the 1 friend I kept would come over and use in front of me but I have not had a single craving only pity I feel for those I left behind I feel that the times I stopped using before prepared me for what I was to go through and telling someone you love can make all the difference to anyone who wants to quit do just that and if you relapse learn from it and try again and again keep learning and keep trying what made you relapse? What steps do you need to take so next time you won’t? try again with this knowledge If you smoke pot use it as a tool its great for anxiety eat right lots of fruits berries where especialy helpfull Blueberries are great for your digestion I know constipation is often a major problem fruit will keep it loose even if it does not sound good take a bite and you won’t be able to stop your body will be craving the nutrients and drink lots of water and move around as much as your energy level will permit most of all stay strong and after a few weeks try to focus on a positive end something you love to do but meth took awayif you fail try again as soon as posible don’t ever stop trying to better your situation and your chances improve every time you try

    PEACE AND LOVE TO ALL JESSE